Page 1

Called him last night and we went right back to Page 1.
What is it with me?
What is it with him?
What is it with me and him?
What is going on with all the hard work?
We are both working real hard on this. Whatever happened to reward after hard work?
Oh my gosh! – Page 1 – back to where we started!

I remember that day – the very first time we spoke.
Saw – called – spoke – love (the kind you never saw before). Asked him yesterday why he called me ‘that day’ and his answer? “Why did you have to be you? “ What do you say to a guy that says that to you? Yeah … I remember that day. There was just something special about Azad - the way he talked, the way he smiled, the things he said, the thoughts in his head ( yeah cos I just kinda knew these). He was - is just so cool.

Although I wanna go to another book entirely, another series, another genre, I know I will always be on Page 1 in this book. ‘No harm in working on it’ I had said to myself.

Yeah, I remember that day, I remember that other day too when stuff happened. The spontaneity, the sharing, the knowing exactly what to do and how to, the being totally in sync. Oh my gosh! je me souviens. It happened so from nowhere and it felt so good. Then it happened again and again and again. It quickly became; the food, the air we breathe, our thoughts, us. It felt so good, all the time and every time. How could you blame the obsession?

We decided to go to different books. It was in our best interest to. (This is another entry… and I promise to tell you all about it). And, the journey began to different books. The calls, the visits, etc, needed to stop or pause. On our separate ways on this journey, there would be the one-off call, and it would be like we never began this journey. Everything would happen!

One call -
“Hi baby!”
“Heeeyyy…wats up ?” I say smiling. Knowing exactly where this was going.
“How have you been? I miss you”
“I miss you too … you have no idea” I say - smile fades into a gaze … I am starring …
“Yes I do…I have a pretty good idea cos I miss you just as much. Its Hayden’s at the weekend. I really would like that you come with me. Okay, if you busy I understand…besides I only ….”
“Babes …shushhhh…..I would love to come”
…’nd then we go right back to Page 1 and stay there for a while.

This is usually the pattern. One call from either of us and we are back right where we left off and instead of working away from Page 1, we work right back. But who can blame us. Page 1 is such an awesome place to be. My gosh!
You should be on a Page 1. Everybody should be on Page 1 with that special person. You know, no matter what, I am always gonna be on page 1 with Azad. Always. We need to.